i hate exams. i hate it whn the fact tht its prelims it gives me even more excuses to slack. hate it even more whn im totally not in the exam mode while the rest are. im so guilty yet im not doing anything. fuck myself for being so contradicting. damn. why do exams even exist? ): baby consistent nagging's really putting me off badly but i gotta bear w it cos i know i totally deserve it. why do i even have so many stacks of notes on my table. and whts more? the more i absorb, the more tired i get and the more i nap! bearing in mind tht i've got another 2 more yrs to complete this entire shit thing aint encouraging at all. being an under-grad is totally not easy. not to say getting a degree.
i used to think tht im those exam kinda person bcos i totally hate projwork. now i know im not. not even sure if i should even be continue to pursue this degree anymore. not tht im totally not interested in this degree, its just tht my passion for learning's depleting. i dont even bother to learn anymore. studying/pursueing a degree is no longer my top priority anymore. baby strongly believe tht i shouldnt continue my degree if im to fail my papers this yr cos he sees tht i totally cannot be bothered at all. he says im always mugging for my papers but i knw nuts whn it comes to prelim. i dont even knw what im mugging. ):
but thrs no more turning back for now. dad paid >2k for 5 stupid exam papers and the only thing i can do now is not to let the 2K+ flow into the drain. so ive decided, if im to flunk my papers for the upcoming exams in may. i'll quit sch and start slogging for my dad then. i dont think i can do it anymore. afterall... taking over dad's biz dont seem much more difficult thn having to memorise thousand pages of notes for 3yrs right? ):
im tired of being so discouraged. i feel like im a total loser. help.
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Ferynn Lim
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keep holding on & you'll only missed out the future.
i hate exams. i hate it whn the fact tht its prelims it gives me even more excuses to slack. hate it even more whn im totally not in the exam mode while the rest are. im so guilty yet im not doing anything. fuck myself for being so contradicting. damn. why do exams even exist? ): baby consistent nagging's really putting me off badly but i gotta bear w it cos i know i totally deserve it. why do i even have so many stacks of notes on my table. and whts more? the more i absorb, the more tired i get and the more i nap! bearing in mind tht i've got another 2 more yrs to complete this entire shit thing aint encouraging at all. being an under-grad is totally not easy. not to say getting a degree.
i used to think tht im those exam kinda person bcos i totally hate projwork. now i know im not. not even sure if i should even be continue to pursue this degree anymore. not tht im totally not interested in this degree, its just tht my passion for learning's depleting. i dont even bother to learn anymore. studying/pursueing a degree is no longer my top priority anymore. baby strongly believe tht i shouldnt continue my degree if im to fail my papers this yr cos he sees tht i totally cannot be bothered at all. he says im always mugging for my papers but i knw nuts whn it comes to prelim. i dont even knw what im mugging. ):
but thrs no more turning back for now. dad paid >2k for 5 stupid exam papers and the only thing i can do now is not to let the 2K+ flow into the drain. so ive decided, if im to flunk my papers for the upcoming exams in may. i'll quit sch and start slogging for my dad then. i dont think i can do it anymore. afterall... taking over dad's biz dont seem much more difficult thn having to memorise thousand pages of notes for 3yrs right? ):
im tired of being so discouraged. i feel like im a total loser. help.
Ferynn Lim