Just Me, Ferynn;

I just wish I had a better memory. ):

I don't know why but my memory's getting really bad these days. No, it's not abt me nt giving a damn to everything ard me but I'm really having difficulties remembering so much things. what has exactly happened to me? Sigh.

I'm still young but I've alr got sucha bad memory nw. it makes me really upset whn I'm suppose to get things done, I forgets. whn i'm suppose to pay for sthing before the date dues, I forgets. And whts more? all these 'forgotten' ones are all business related. therefore I really cannot afford to forget ANYTHING bcos if I do, sthing big gonna happen!

It sucks so much when I fear everynight before I sleep. cos it's the time whn I'll settle down and then things just start flowing in and then I'll start realizing that Ive forgotten to get certain things done! fucking hate myself for it! really. ):

This weekend was crazy! I'm suppose to submit the GST online on sat. And if I didn't, income tax's gonna freeze my company's acc! See! the consequences' really really terrible. I was practically trembling whn I realized I didn't get it done on time! ): next, it was the summon I forgot to pay, consequences was to pay 7times the amt I supposingly had to pay. Sometimes, whn clients called to ask me queries or daddy needs me to get some work done immediately, the moment I'm done talking to them, i forgot all abt it agn until im reminded. why am i like this? so lousy. Sigh. And nw, what's gonna happen tml?

I'm feeling really useless. I just can't get any thing right. For nw, I just want to close my eyes and have a good night rest. Gotta get ready for the next battle tml yes?

Sigh.
Gdnight world. ☹
I'm done.


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